Sunsets and Genetics

June 17, 2008

The world is divided up between people who like to watch the sunset and people who don’t. People like you are never happy. You’re anxious, Type A, egocentric perfectionist who can’t sit still and die alone with a million bucks and a thousand regrets. The people who can relax, enjoy the sunset, hold hands at the end of the day… They’re the happy ones. – After The Sunset (2004)

A few years ago, I had to repeat that scene in the above Pierce Brosnan film tens of times just to get the lines right.  At that time, I was determined to be part of the half of humanity who can relax, enjoy the sunset, and hold hands at the end of the day.  I still believed then, that it was a possibility if I try hard enough.

I remembered it again after reading that whether one will be happy – at least in this lifetime – is already predetermined by our genes.  Wow.  So much for attempting to find happiness.  If this is true, then some of us were born to a life of glee and others of gloom?   

Dear Sir Up There, heed my decades old prayer now please.  I so want to have a happy old age and I’d love to watch sunsets.  But I think I’ll need a hand to hold soon … The thought of growing old alone is getting so damn scary everyday…   


The Enigmatic Macabebes

June 10, 2008

The Enigmatic Macabebes

My draft on the blog launching of Pampanga Governor Ed Panlilio last Saturday has been sidetracked by my fascination with the tour given to by the Juan D. Nepomuceno Center for Kapampangan Studies of the Holy Angel University in Pampanga.

Two (2) panels on the “Enigmatic Macabebes” caught my attention. On one side was a refutation of the much-maligned Macabebes – touted as traitors and labeled as “dugong aso” both by Filipinos and at times, even by their fellow Kapampangans. History has been unkind to them, particularly when they remained loyal to the Spaniards even at the height of the Revolution, when they were instrumental in the capture of General Emilio Aguinaldo, and when they fiercely served the Americans (a unit in the US Army – the Philippine Scouts – was formed in their honor). Read the rest of this entry »


For A While

May 27, 2008

If I leave you, it doesn’t mean I love you any less. – “Keep Me In Your Heart” by Warren Zevon (2003).

A good friend lent me his bootleg DVD copy of Boston Legal a couple of months ago. We have drifted apart, though, and I dread finishing off the series. James Spader, who reminds me of Robert Downey Jr.’s tousled-is-hot look, has become a habit.

More than the plots, I love the soundtrack, particularly this one song, Keep Me In Your Heart, played in the episode where Michael J. Fox appeared as a cancer patient. And I am borrowing it for the next days.

It seems this is a season for goodbyes. I wonder who or what else I should bid farewell to. But since my goodbyes have always been unrefined, I will not even attempt to try. I hope, though, that I will find a way to convey my deep gratitude for the chances I did not deserve, my regret for all my indiscretions and my fervent prayer that, as the late Mr. Zevon sung, you shall keep me in your heart for a while, as I shall keep you in mine.


Happy birthday, Jay!

May 27, 2008

With Jay in Burgos, Ilocos Norte

The birthday boy describes himself (from his Facebook account) as: “Generic… work-in-progress… values family and relationships… upholds honesty, humily and sincerity.”

To me, he is a blessing and one of the most genteel men I will ever meet. Happy birthday, kapatid and congratulations again on the Masters!


Shifting Sand

May 26, 2008

An SMS from a friend:

Sand taught me one thing: You cannot hold too many things, no matter what you do to make them stay and no matter how much they want to stay, the wind will always blow them away.  So learn to let go and choose carefully which you want to stay, because like sand, only those which are in the center of your palm will last.


“God bless the broken road”

May 22, 2008

Tomorrow will be a good friend’s despedida to mark the advent of his new beginning elsewhere.    

Though our meetings have been too few, he, along with others I’ve been blessed to meet, has negated all misgivings I had with the opposite sex. Despite the wall of doubt that years of watching one’s heart splinter into pieces have built, there still really are good, decent men.  That genuine friendship is possible.  That sometimes, the shelving of some dreams to pursue new ones are, as Rascal Flatts put it, “part of a grander plan that is coming true.”  

May we all find what we are looking for, dear friend, no matter how badly the road lies broken and bent.  Fare thee well, Ovel. 


Lines from Boston Legal

May 21, 2008
  1. Don’t try to get in my head, you won’t like the mess.
  2. People in love lose their grip.
  3. As you age, you only get more beautiful.
  4. I’d take a friend over a wife anytime.